to gain an understanding for this blog, please start at the first entry January 19th 2011
Day after day I would open up my computer first thing. I could hardly wait to see who said what to me and I felt childlike and expectant. I felt petulant and afraid. I felt freedom arise and then I lapsed into clingy confusion.
A woman who is no longer in my circle of community on this art site took me in and showed me the ropes. She told me I was wonderful and she seemed to read my mind. She liked what I told her about her art and about herself. I do believe I had my first Redbubble crush with her. It did not take long however to feel her drifting away from me and letting me go. This was to be my first (heARTfelt) Bubble to burst. This was not to be the last, men were next! But through all of the pain I can tell you now; I have a circle of woman friends that continue to extend warmth and support in my life to this day. I communicate by phone and by mail. Some almost daily and some a bit beyond that. This has been one of the most amazing developments since I started my journey around art and community.
I was excelling in my use of the simple program on my Mac for photos and I was itching to do some of the amazing things I saw others do with a program called Photoshop. But Oh my goodness that price! I heard if you were a student you could get this program at a fraction of the price. I thought I would love to take a Photoshop class. I looked up classes in my local Junior College and found an extension class in my own town of Half Moon Bay. This meant I would not have commute and that meant I could stay close to home and not be gone for long. Ahhhh this felt so good. The class was Illustrator but I thought that a good start since the college sold the programs together as one application. Wow, I saw myself flying towards so many new possibilities. I saw my penchant for birthing ideas like a chicken laid eggs finally having an arena to shine in. What was happening to me?
What was happening to me was the feeling I was walking straight into my life…